i just had this day.......

well.. i really had a bad day.. it sucks so much i can even bear to think bout it.. coz there are 2 reasons.. relstwo and so kind of realization to me.. in relstwo.. sobrang na sabon akoh ng prof namin.. sobrang pahiya me.. ndi lang yun.. sobrang gatong pa.. at sobrang sakit ng feeling.. nasa harapan ka and u look stupid coz u dont know what are you talking bout.. you cant explain it coz u really didnt do it.. aw.. supot sobra.. to make things worst.. sure na ndi akoh exempted sa final exam.. great.. sobrang ganda news for me.. >.<..

2nd thing is na realize koh or na iisip koh ba na worth it pa ba kung tumuloy akoh sa akin courtship.. its to much a risk.. kc lam koh may mahal ka pang iba.. at ndi lang yun.. alam koh na wala kang gusto sakin.. at alam koh na rin na never ka magkakagusto sakin.. baka masaktan lang akoh masayado.. i dont wanna really open my heart kung masasaktan naman akoh.. yeah.. i know i can stand up easily but ndi rin noh.. i have to many hardships to carry.. some of those na-share koh na.. some of those i dont really wanna share anymore baka kc maawa ka sakin.. so never mind na lang.. btw.. i know na everything happends for a reason.. pero.. pano kung bullshit ang reasons na yun.. parang wala rin kwenta lahat.. alam koh.. i need to wait, understand everythings.. wag maging hassle sa trabaho moh.. and all that stuff.. pero.. i'm just human.. forgive me.. mejo nagtatampo akoh minsan.. kc i have emotions eh.. masakit sakin.. i think i have to let go.. kc wala naman akoh mapapala.. only sakit and much more emo times to have.. i just have a feeling it wont work.. kc you wont really love a guy lyk me.. and i know you deserve much better.. much better than me.. much more understanding.. maybe its not really worth it.. >.<.. wala lang.. nilabas koh lang sama ng loob koh.. ^^